Gasoline


A week ago I spilled
a can of gasoline onto
the dirt floor of the barn.

A gallon or so soaked into the earth
and, since then, I’ve had headaches,
can’t catch my balance.

And I can still smell the gas,
even when I’m more than 20 yards away.
It reminds me of hitching west
and this ride I hooked
in the back of a truck
the color of rust.

When I shook the driver’s hand he smiled,
his teeth looked like a caterpillar,
and I knew I was beat.

The guy kept all these rags back there,
soaked in gasoline. It was warm
and I fell asleep below the onslaught
of air, inside a cocoon of reek.

When I woke up, it was almost time
to get out. I could feel caterpillars on me,
thought I was going to suffocate.

    He said the free ride was over, it was only a matter of time. And I did not wish to be out west,

    did not care to sit in any more cars with strangers and talk about the pace or weather back east.


I tried to lose the smell in a stream,
thought I sent it up river, away
like father, the attic, his ties.

Ryan Van Winkle

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